Thursday, September 18, 2008

Realization


An old highschool friend of mine posted these song lyrics that came to her last night in her facebook profile. These lyrics currently speak to me and I wanted to share them in my lounge so that I never forget how I felt when I first read them today...

Last night I realized something
Something I didn’t want to be true.
I realized you were leaving
Or maybe I didn’t ever even have you
Now Im back where I started
All alone and wondering why
I speak really softly to you
Its because Im trying not to cry

Something told me it wouldn’t work
But I didn’t want to hear
I will not cry over you
Not even a single tear

Oh well I guess
That’s all I really can say
I got my hopes up
And now those hopes are gone away

No happy ending is in store
No future of me and you
Im back alone where I started
Its over and that is true.

Something about a silver lining
That’s the thought anyways
Things will brighten up
There will be better days

Something told me it wouldn’t work
But I didn’t want to hear
I will not cry over you
Not even a single tear

Oh well I guess
That’s all I really can say
I got my hopes up
And now those hopes have floated away

What the hell am I doing?
Why do I even care?
I lied to myself
Telling myself you would always be there

Or maybe you lied to me
There was lying all around
And now the lying is silent.
And your no where to be found

Something told me it wouldn’t work
But I didn’t want to hear
I will not cry over you
Not even a single tear

Oh well I guess
That’s all I really can say
I got my hopes up
And now those hopes have floated away



I deeply relate to this poem except the difference is that I have shed tears...over someone who just seemed too good to be true...someone who helped build me up as easily as he tore me down. Communication is key...but you can't be the one to do it all. You have to be met halfway. What gets me is how something so wonderful could go so wrong over ONE incident that I was sincerely so oblivious about...it just doesn't add up...but the end equation is still the same...I'm the one who gets hurt in the end...I dare someone to prove to me that nice, genuine people don't finish last...or possibly never place at all in this wicked place we call 'life'?!...heart broken twice in a year...come on now...does that even seem fair?









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