Thought for the day--Hold your own!!

For the past 3 days I have been going through a rough patch of emotional abuse brought upon myself I'm sure...but triggered by individuals whom I thought were genuinely good and trustworthy people in my life. I am now learning that there is a wolf hiding under sheepskin, even in the most trustworthy person you know.

I've learned that just because you treat people the way you want them to treat you...doesn't necessarily mean that they want to be treated the same way you them--perhaps ideally they want to be treated a different way (which produces conflict and distress).

Through these rough times I have been so lucky to hear from such supportive individuals who support me for being who I am---and nothing less. (Thank you especially to Gina, Larissa, Christine, Monica, Marina, Tatiana and Margot from Australia)

I will not lose hope that there are genuinely good people out there who think or feel the same way I do--it many not be EXACTLY the way I feel about love, life and relationships but they certainly don't judge me, ridicule me or chastise me for the metamorphasis journey I have been on since returning back from living in Australia and Asia. They have accepted the changes within me and dealt with all my bad and good times. I have found that the last 5 years of my life have been quite challenging. I wasn't sure about myself...about the changes I have made mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. However, I know that I am making them for a reason...I am crossing paths with people who will like and dislike me--and thats okay...life is what you make it and I choose to live the rest of my life making decisions and choosing paths that are right for me.

In the meantime, I find myself resorting to 'tangible hope'---I hold on to positive messages from family and friends as well as listening to restorative hopeful songs to inspire myself on this journey. One of these songs in particular I wanted to share with all my readers. It's uplifting and inspiring. Please take the time to read and listen to the lyrics. This song may send you a different message than it did me, but I hope you enjoy it!

Its called 'Details in the fabric' by Jason Mraz (Thank you Moniboo for introducing this song to me)---you are one of my most uplifting family members ever! xoxo

Most importantly I'd like to take this opportunity to count my blessings and thank all my wonderful supporters. I love you all!

It's Amazing by Jem

So, I'm still working through the motions of hurt...wondering if I'll ever hit the anger stage that people tell me about. In the meantime I continue to be blessed with wonderful friends around me. Just recently (Sept 16th, 2008) my friend left this note in my mailbox:

D - seriously, this is my favourite song. You NEED to listen to it. I'm dedicating it to you :o) I LOVE YOU. The words are amazing, as is the song, as are you. xox

For the first time in a while I started to shed tears of realization that there are people out there that genuinely care about me and how I feel. Good people who truly like me for who I am...and don't want me to change. People who see that I am a genuinely nice person and remind me constantly that there is no such thing as being 'too nice' (even though I've been told so by someone I thought cared about me)...Lets get this straight, I've always known that my friends have always been there for me and are always concerned about my well being and they do understand how hard things have been on me emotionally this past year...but the support they've shown through this emotional rut this year...wow---Its (literally) Amazing..and I am forever grateful!!!

Hopefully this specific blog will reach out to those who need to hear how important they are to others in their lives and persevere through the hurt they are going through...you're not alone...